Take me Home Charlotte

If I was crazy and thought life in Private Practice was real, I would be saying ‘Please take me home Charlotte and be my best friend. I will be there for you and I will not let anyone hurt you, like they did to me.” That’s what I feel like doing now, just to run away from it all and live in a fantasy world with fictional people. That way I can create and write my own life story and chose what I want to happen. If only Charlotte King was a real person, because I really need a Charlotte in my life. She is a fighter, she is strong, and most importantly she needs support and close friends to be able to help her through what is going to happen to her.

I feel her pain, because like myself she will want to run away and hide from it all as a way of trying to deny it ever happened. That is what I wanted to do after my attack happened and even now, I still just want to jump on a plane and fly away from New Zealand to run away from every thing but unfortunately that is not the answer. I need to face them head on, as Charlotte will have too. I need to tell myself ‘stay stronger, you’re a fighter, just like Charlotte’.

The pain, and memories do not go away unfortunately but they do fade and heal over time. After a year of my attack they have faded but I have accepted that it will be always be a part of me as it has made me who I am now. I am a survivor and what ever horrible things happen to me, will only make me stronger. You only get dealt with what you can handle in life because I believe things happen for a reason. I believe the bad things that happen to you are there to teach you lessons in life and to help others get through it just like you have too.

So If Charlotte king was a real person and she asked me to come live with here I would be overjoyed but she isn’t so I should stop thinking like a crazy person.