Charlotte King (KaDee Strickland) who gets brutally attacked and raped on Private Practice will need a lot of support and help from her friends, colleagues and more importantly her fiancée Cooper freedman (Paul Adelstein). It is important that she does seek help afterwards because I know what it is like not too, and believe me it’s not worth the pain later.
If only I could turn back the clock and erase that awful night of my attack. I would in heart beat if could, but I can’t and now I’m stuck with it until the day I die. I should have gotten professional help just like Charlotte most likely will, but I didn’t because I was a coward and ashamed. I was ashamed that something so traumatic and horrifying happened to me and I just let it happen. I didn’t fight back, I didn’t yell or scream, I just stayed quiet and let him do it. I was too much of a coward to say ‘stop it’ or ‘leave me alone I’m only 21 for god’s sake!’ and now I look back and wonder if I said those things to him would he have continued?
The Aftermath was the worst because I pretended like it never happened. I went home like normal, went to work and continued my studies at university. What I did afterwards, I went into shutdown mode and closed myself off from the people who cared. Now I am lucky if one of my friend’s wants to see me because I am afraid to talk to them. I never go out at night anymore because I am afraid and in the day I go out but very rarely.
If only I had the courage to seek help after the attack, then maybe I wouldn’t be sitting here trying to connect with the cyber world for someone to talk too and share my thoughts.
Let’s help Charlotte and if you are a rape victim too then please don’t be like me and get professional help straight away. www.rainn.org are the best people to help. Also do not blame yourself and ask ‘what if’ questions to yourself, it will eat away at you otherwise and just remember IT’S NOT YOUR FAULT!
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