I Love Private Practice, More than Myself

It is sad but true. I have now accepted that I love the show Private Practice more than I love myself right now. I am now officially addicted to the show and everything I say or talk about is on ‘Private Practice’. My friends and even my family are now trying to do an intervention on me, that’s how bad it has become. I try to tell them that it is just temporary and that it is my way of trying not to think about the bad things in life I have experienced. I think after a year of being addicted, I guess that it wouldn’t be counted as a temporary thing.

As much as I love the show, it shouldn’t take over my life like it has done. It makes me look crazy when I am around others, so no wonder I don’t have any friends. No one understands that by having to give it up, it would be much more hard to do than it was for me to stop drinking alcohol. It is like asking me to switch off my life support or telling me to stop breathing, I just know I couldn’t.

Lucky for me, they aren’t telling me to cut ‘Private Practice’ out of my life completely; instead they are just telling me to get a life instead. I try telling them that watching the show is like my medicine as it helps me to forget and feel better about myself. They however, think I’m just talking ‘rubbish’ and don’t understand why it is so important to me. So I stand by my reasons and say, ‘Private Practice saved my life and if it wasn’t for the show I would be in such a bad mess right now’.

Now that I have written this and read it over, I can see why they are concerned but like I said in this blog, it is just temporary, even if it takes me until the end of the show’s series I will be less crazy and like they want ‘I will have a life’.

One thing is for certain though I will never stop watching ‘Private Practice’ and no matter how hard it will be for me to watch the rape Story, I will watch it intently. I owe it to my role model KaDee Strickland to watch it, as she made a damn effort to make it as real as possible. This is so that victims like myself can feel comfortable to come forward and know that it is not our fault and that it is not okay for this to happen to anyone!